Hi, i'm Claudine! Freshman at Whitney High School, reppin' the class of 2012. God, family, and friends mean the world to me. I love reading books, especially if they're interesting. I couldn't imagine life without music, it really is my therapy. Bonding makes my day & i appreciate people who go out of their comfort zone to act like their selves with no restraint.

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These past few weeks have all been about realizations. There were so many times where i just wanted to rant and let out my thoughts but i was "too busy". but maybe that was just an excuse. My mind is  filled with so many different contradicting thoughts, and it sucks because as much as i want to sort through it and figure it all out, my mind's not letting me. or i'm not letting myself. It's like i'm afraid to find out the answers to the questions i keep asking myself, i'm afraid to find out the truth. I swear Dalley's class was definitely the right one for me to take because it SERIOUSLY relates to everything in my life. Everyday, there's a topic, discussion, or just something that he says that hits me and makes me think about things happening in my life.

Things happening have made me realize that there are so many things that bother me, but i don't do anything about it and i just keep my mouth shut. and that used to be enough for me, but not anymore. I find myself getting more mad at things and sometimes i just wanna snap and burst and say what i really think.

1) Shit talking definitely sucks. Honestly when you look at it, how do you really know who's there for you then? because seriously, EVERYONE talks shit. but what annoys me the most is when people talk shit and act all nice to you in your face. or when people talk shit and they don't really know you. when they base it on assumptions. i really think that the only way talking shit can be all right is if you have no problem at all saying whatever shit you're saying to the person you're shit talking about. but i also realized that obviously not everyone has the same opinion. another thing we talked about in english class! when are things wrong? why are they wrong? cause if you can't answer that question, then doesn't that show you that you're just accepting what people are telling you that's wrong? This honestly makes me want to limit judging as much as possible.

2) Sometimes, people make the rudest comments. And i guess that kind of fits into the question of what you think is rude. But honestly, would it kill you to be nice? What i do with my life, who i surround myself with, that's NONE of your fucking business. don't make those kind of comments and then expect me to be okay with it and share my life with you.

3) I don't like the person i'm becoming. The right thing to do pops into my mind but I don't follow it and for that, i don't really like who i am right now. I wish i didn't care so much about what other people think or of how i look in someone's eyes. Cause then i would be living my life for them, and not for myself.. I really do need to take some time out and just think. I avoided being alone this whole week because i didn't wanna think. but if i don't i'll burst.

Junior year is in between good and bad. I hope it gets better