Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Love ♥
1:26 AM
it seems so crazy that although i have a million things to do, i'm choosing to let out my thoughts here first. it's been awhile since i blogged but it just seems like i've reached a milestone, and i want to remember and cherish this moment. for the longest time i've been in disagreement with who i am and who i've become. i let all my doubts, fears, and self hate shape me into someone not real. i've been hurt so much by so many people that i've tried to become someone who will not disappoint. i put up so many walls to protect myself and in turn only show a bubbly personality that will please people. but tonight, everything changed. these past couple of weeks, i've been learning more and more about myself, trying to love me for me, the real me. and tonight was my biggest lesson of all. i love myself. i can honestly truly say that if i look at a mirror, i am no longer ashamed of what i see. instead i am proud. coming from love, speaking my truth no matter how scary, helping other people, that is who i am. that is who i want to continue to be. i am tired of pretending, of hiding who i am, and i realize that i shouldnt. God made me to be exactly how i am right now, i do not need to be perfect, do not need to fit that image that i have put in my head as "right". being who i am is reciprocating God's gift. i will come from love in all the ways i know how, and i will try to stay away from fear as much as possible