Tuesday, March 8, 2011
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5:48 PM
I'M DONE WITH ALL THE NEGATIVITY AND THE SENSITIVITY!
or at least i hope i am. these past few weeks haven't actually been that bad. actually they've been pretty goood! but on the inside i'm such a mess. and i honestly don't even know why. i have so many thoughts that are so jumbled up in my head and they keep piling up before i can even figure them out. SO OVERWHELMING. and i find myself so frustrated at myself at times. i swore i would do better =/ i guess old habits die hard. i feel like i create my own problems. like i make something out of nothing. well i think everyone does that. i think we make things complicated, when it shouldn't be. because it feels wrong and weird to not be doing anything, to not have anything wrong, to not constantly worry about something, to just be. i wish i could change that though! i mean i always complain about what's going on in my life but i feel like it would be totally weird if i wasn't complaining about something. i guess my lesson is.. you can't always be perfect. we were made to make mistakes and feeling bad can't be avoided. i find that i've come to rely on it actually.. FINDING BALANCE IS SO DAMN HARD